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I felt like writing. So here i am.........writing my thoughts as they come to me, this wont make sense, this whole blog will be a bunch of thoughts all meshed together in one but that's what my brain is doing, just thoughts coming from all over ther place and more than half of them arent even making sense.

1.How come it alwats seems as though that when everything is looking good and you are on a "high" all the sudden everything crashes down all at once. No, it's not a little thing, it's a lot of little things, even a lot of big things and you don't want to do anything but crawl into your bed and dream good dreams and never wake up and never have to face the problems that are going on around you.

2. Why does it seem that the people you love the most are always so far away. That you never get to see them enough and you miss them until you ache.

3.Why does it seem as though the people you need most in your life at the time are just not there.  

 "im the rubber and you're the glue whatever you say bounces off of me and sticks to you".  I remeber  being a kid, saying that and then getting over what happened 2 minutes later and being the happiest kid alive. Being a kid you owned the world, you lived it how you wanted to live it, yes you got told "no you can't do that" but at least you got over it quickly.

4. Why can't it be like that now.

5. Why can't we just get over things like that, why can't we let emotions out but then be happy right after.

6. Why can't we dance the streets and sing at the top of our lungs and not care what people have to say.

7. Why don't we live the life that we see fit.

8. Why do we hide and run from true feelings.

9. Why not let the world know what your all about.

10.Why be scared of opinion and change.

"Sticks and stones will break my bones but names will never hurt me" 

11. Why do we find pleasure in putting people down. We all do it.

12. Why must we fight and have wars in order to solve problems

13. Why can't we communicate.

14. Why do we fear the unknown, the future, death

15. Is love even true anymore

16 Drugs, Alchohal, Sex..........overrated?

17. Why do people need to feel superior to others.......be in control?

18. Why do we judge and mislead

19. How come we all know what is wrong, and do it anyways. 

20. Why do we seem to ask all the questiosn that can't be answered. 

21. Why do we question in the first place.

Umm

I miss Bobby. Alot.  I hate how most of our conversations are "hey, hows it going" type conversations, except the one we had the other day. We don't talk on the phone anymore.......he's the only person I can talk to on the phone.   We haven't hung out, just like the two of us (that reminds me of a will smith song) In ages. I think i thought we were closer than what we were. Oh well. He knows im here for him.

Me and nicole had a heart to heart a couple days back. It was probably the best talk I have ever had. It was really nice. I'm glad she talked to Joe about it, I'm rather suprised too. It was nice of Joe to apologize, shocked me. Me and nicole took lots of silly pictures, it reminded me of the times we used to hang out constantly, just being complete morons, and being too silly for our own good. lol. Maybe we'll re-bond over the March Break

Ohhhhhhhhh MARCH BREAK.  This means CASSSSSSSSSSSSIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Holy jesus, she's by far the greatest person that I have ever talked to. Holy.  I love her to death and we get to hangout soooo soon. We are going to laugh. Ugh. IT's gonna be the best time of my friggen life. She's silly, I'm silly, she likes music, i like music, she likes other stuff, i like other stuff. we are meant to friggen be lol. LLBFFF <3333333333333

I love my friends.  These 3 2 people really stick out though. <333333333333333333333

no toc
no terrorfest

no cass
no jacob

gotta wait until march break..

oh march break. Hangouts

Hope
Cass
Jacob
Danny
Bobby
Jason
Nicole

Only a week to go. Slowest week of my life.